Staying Disciplined

"It is far better to be free to govern or misgovern yourself than to be governed by anybody else". -Kwame Nkrumah

The quote from Kwame is truly fire for the soul. These are words I live by and why it is truly a challenge to stay discipline with all the distractions we have in our lives. Our phones, tv's, radios and tablets always have alerts that notify us when something uniques happens. I find myself muting the news and avoiding the alerts from Facebook just keep a peace of mind. After a while social media and technology can be annoying and a break is needed to keep your sanity and you're conscious.

Law and Order was on point this week, seemed like Dick Wolf did a great job writing in the script how officers should be trained on how to deal with folks having a mental health breakdown. Olivia's, character did a great job listening and allowing the person to speak and find out what was most important to her. It was good to see on the screen how it should be when a police officer responds to a mental health call. Though I know it is quite different when an officer experiences this in real time but with proper training and patience this approach that Dick Wolf wrote can be done. It is possible to treat Black and Brown people humanely and shot them to death.

I can't help but be concerned when Ervin goes out because the police brutality is so real with the police killing innocent Black men. Erv has never been arrested though we live in a world that will judge him by the color of his skin, than the content of his character. As a person of color we live in a world surrounded by fear and death. If you live in the inner city you pray that it doesn't come to your doorstep if you mind your business. I look forward to leaving the end of the year to spend time with my Sun, Pierre and my mother who is in Georgia. I pray that the creator bless me with the option to get my dream boat so I can dock down south after hurricane season. Just being away from New York I can revamp my goals and how I will spend my time going forward.

I am not sure how I am going to pay for the boat, but I know I am getting one and the creator knows what I need. Next month I am going to see a Beneteau 35 which is in New Rochelle, New York. I am not sure if it this boat for me, but I am shopping for a Beneteau and something I can refit to my liking. Most folks want to own property my dream is to own a few boats and be a woman sailor who can glide to the islands when I need a break. I eventually want a nice place in the Virgin Islands away from all the mayhem in the main land.

The other day I was thinking I have three degrees and two licenses what the hell I am doing driving Lyft. It finally hit me like an epiphany it is time to make my mark and that means treating myself. I have raised kids on my own single handedly. I have struggled for many years unnecessarily and some struggles were good. Getting to be over fifty you realize you may have been existing in life but not living. Living means truly appreciating your family, friends and the time you spend on Earth.

vMy last interviews I asked the college kids what would be your legacy? Some of them stated to know they would want to leave the world better than they found it.

Back to my life of attempting to stay disciplined and challenging myself in situations where I am uncertain. Blessingz....