No Worries...be happy...

My attitude is still no worries be happy...The local jobs I applied for seemed to go with someone else for the positions and that's ok. I feel one interview was just a waste of time and they had someone already. I think they had to be fair and interview someone of color so it didn't look like they were bias. That means that I have great opportunity coming my way and I welcome the energy into my environment. No worries ...I'm happy just moving right along editing more material and getting myself ready for my trip down south. Getting myself mentally prepared to go down south and edit the winter away. Looking forward to spending time with my Mom and picking up a gig in production while in Atlanta area.

My current situation is getting myself discipline again. I have really fell off with making lists and keeping up a production calendar with deadlines. Today I made my first steps towards organization and production by editing my trailer for my film and updating my youtube channel. I am not about to allow negative thoughts take over my goals I have set for myself. As many Americans still struggling to pay the bills and keep a roof over my head. I still have a journey ahead of me until I will be able to not stress myself over my bills and that's ok. Scheduling myself for me time has been a struggle but I am getting there at least it's on my calendar which is a start.

The last few weeks trying to get myself organized has been difficult but well worth it. I am truly grateful to the Queens around me that have assisted me by hiring me for jobs. The fall is bringing in a fresh new start for me I feel it. I believe I have to stay consistent, discipline and the universe will bless me with everything I need.

Online I have seemed to piss some folks off as usual. I highlighted the Dave Chapelle show on my timeline and folk showed they azz. Some folks weren't even part of the gay community were stating how insensitive Dave was with transexuals. One girl online, made a comment who never even saw the show. I just thought to myself how ignorant and privileged this individual thought she was to give an opinion without the knowledge of the show. The attack on Dave was real then I looked at the people who were doing the complaining. Who were they? What did they represent in their own lives? It wasn't hard to see that most of the folks hadn't seen the special of Dave, just wanted to have something to say basically be heard on a platform. I find that some of them were unhealthy just by looking at their image they didn't love themselves. What most folks seemed to gloss over who were hating on Dave, is that he asked a question before he started. The question was, can a transexual be a racist? He posed that question because he wanted folks to think about it. He then proceeded to tell a story and use his own experience where he thought folks from the gay community were being hypocritical and why. I think one can be racist and transexual. Hear is whyI agree when Dave told jokes about Black people calling the N word folks were laughing and on the floor. We made fun of a Black man who thought he was a klan member Amerikkka thought it was hilarious to poke fun at Black Americans. Dave being the comedian he has poked fun at every nationality, gender, age and religion nothing is sacred not even rape. Now when Dave made jokes about everyone else it was ok now that he makes jokes including the gay community specifically the transgenders all hell breaks out folks are protesting Netflix. Where is all the outrage when Black folks are being disrespected and even killed. See the difference with the so called walk out of the White transgenders on Netflix is that its one sided they aren't really standing up for everyone but themselves. This right here hits on the head! Hope this gives an understanding to how some of us folks.

Blessingz...till next time.

Blessingz are on their way

I am truly thankful for my life and my environment. Though I live in the hood I am thankful that my neighbors aren't completely out of control and some folks actually speak. I feel overwhelmed because I am behind on my bills and I don't see any light right now.

Today I have a ZOOM interview for one of the local universities which I am definitely interested in getting in. I am NOT sure how and when I will get my replacement drones due to my income. I came home and just thought what is it I really want. I realized I just want to do whatI have been doing shooting independent documentaries and teaching. I think keeping myself in tuned with young folks and what is hot and new keeps me updated with the new apps and techniques. I recall when I first relocated back to Rochester I wanted to teach at MCC but they were having issues. Then I applied to UB really thinking I had a chance and again I was not given an opportunity to exhibit my skills. Though teaching iphone photography was an independent experience I taught myself how to upload classes on Eventbrite and how to market each class. I am proud of myself for teaching the class and providing an experience for my students.

My friend Steph and Erv said why you under selling yourself when you speak to promising prospects and I think it's because I let my work speak for itself. I was always an artist who let my work speak for itself at the end of the day folks talk mad shyt how hot their work is and then you look at it and looks like who did this shyt? I am still working in my craft and at the end of the day I am still happy in what I do and how I serve my community.

Blessingz are on the way I can feel it like the fall moving into its season. Success is what I make it and by surrounding myself with like minded individuals I'm on my way. I think that is why I wanted to stay in the academia field because of new ideas and new technology. I don't know what is next but I'm preparing myself for the opportunity is all I can do.

Thanks for listening and reading my blog and hope it has inspired you to be your best at whatever you choose to do today.

Preparing Yemaya for haul out

Lately it has been raining in Rochester but that hasn’t stopped me from getting Yemaya prepared for the hard. I didn’t get to sail her this year and have accepted that I have work to do before I get out there in the water. My time with her has been spent writing, cleaning and fixing her up. I am sure proud of myself because I never would have thought I could’ve installed a bilge pump or change my oil on a 30 ft Hunter boat. I washed one of my sails before the rain came and still have another sail I want to wash out. I bought two bins from Home Depot to store the sails in, though they did come in a big nylon bag I don’t want any critters in my sails when I pull them out next year. Facebook was finally good for something I met mechanic, Sarge through a colleague on Facebook. It has been a challenge working lately not enough clients. I have been working on a film that’s been helping my situation and hoping that the environmental organization will hire me. I need to update my reel online which is going to take time from my work schedule.

Its definitely time for a commercial of what I can do, haven’t done one in a while so it’s time to get back on track with my editing skills. Adobe has come out with phenomenal tools for editing and it’s time to get cracking.

I‘ve been vexed about my drones both drones are unable to fly and I need a new one to even function and continue my work. I have my eye on the Autel which is what I will probably get with two batteries so I can continue working for real estate and insurance companies.

Its been a trying year but I’m so ever grateful for my boat Yemaya and the memories I will have with her in the future. Yesterday I cooked salmon with maple syrup, fried shrimp, butternut squash with cinnamon, basmati rice and some black beans. I bought a 7 up cake from Aldis for the Fam and they tore it up. Erv dropped off a plate with Sachee since Adianna had to work on a Sunday she didn’t have to cook. It’s October and it’s time to get to work and make the best of my situation. My Suns are in my prayers hoping that Peedy finds a job soon. Seems like his job maxed out with the moving situation.

Its time to read a good book this winter I’m so ready…

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